Pages of Euphoria
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
  America del Sur: the first 6 days
Sunday, February 11, 2007
  Memories Rekindled
Double clicking the one folder of many in "my pictures." Its label reads Vietnow, an example of my obsession with creating names (some clever, most frivolous) for anything and everything. About 400 thumbnails popup on the screen and I am immediately brought back to the landscapes, jungles, cyclos, oppressive heat, sweat and beauty of Vietnam. This is not nearly a new concept, but it will never cease to amaze me how a single image, a collection of dots, lines, shapes and colors, can have so much power. It captures your gaze, in half a second your brain recognizes it, and the picture forces you reflexively to ponder, dream, fantasize, and realize the importance of what you did, how incredulous it all now seems. Of the many images that rush pass my eyes, this one today happened to stand out and I want to share it.

I wanted to see what once was the De-militarized zone of Vietnam. I arranged for a veteran of the war named Mr. Thia to show me all of the sites over the course of two days, his mopehead being our source of transportation. On day two, we were near the Cambodian border, around the waistline of Vietnam. Riding on the back of Mr. Thia's cycle, the breeze rushing past I can remember provided a momentary release from the sweltering and sticky heat. My ass was quite numb from riding on that tired and depleted leather seat for almost an hour. We are climbing in elevation and winding left and right around roads that were paved 30 years ago. Tragically we passed a bridge where a truck carrying passengers in its tailgate swerved to avoid something, probably a cow, crashed through the guard rail and plummeted 50 feet to meet the river and their deaths below. Mr Thai told me he knew one of the people in the truck, and I tried to give condolences with conviction.

We stopped for a rest on the side of the road still flanked very much by jungle, but here there were primitive housing structures as well. As I got off the bike to stretch and brush the red dust from my shirt and camera bag, a group of children ages 5-13 began to assemble around me, each staring at me with unwavering and penetrating gazes. They were not rude stares though, in fact the furthest thing from them. Their stares were filled with genuine fascination, curiosity, and shyness. Making eye contact with the very young ones would send them into hiding behind the legs of older ones. It honestly felt like I was the first white person they had ever seen. I looked at Mr. Thai inquisitively and he uttered the words "Montegnard People" out around the cigarette he was lighting. Unfortunately I did not learn much about the history of these people or even what the name means. I know it is a French word. This is what I did learn about these people in the brief amount of time I was in their presence: Their lives were patterned around hunting and gathering. All of the adults I was told were farming in the rice paddies save one that was manning the shanty supply store made out of boards. It seemed like Vietnamese living in cities thought the Montegnards were completely inferior, and I even heard one refer to them as "monkey people," but that could have just been a bad apple. The children were left to watch themselves. They lived in absolute and complete poverty. They had nothing but the tattered and dirty clothes on their backs, and the raised thatched roof dwellings where they lived. Walking through them, avoiding stepping on all of the free range animals, being followed by my new entourage, all felt like going back in time. A time before electricity and modern niceties that make our lives now seem so simple and assisted that they're almost boring. There were no power lines, no water pipes, no wi-fi, no myspace. They did have each other though, and it seemed enough to make them happy because they all had smiles.

Mr. Thai suggested that I buy them candy from the store, which I hesitantly did because it felt like I was at a zoo or something. I opened the package and all of the kids immediately set upon me with open palms and ravenous faces. Organizing a line was futile; you would think that I would have been prepared from teaching Korean children but it wasn't in the cards. I tried my best to make sure everyone received an equal amount, but I'm afraid a few sugar cravings went unsatisfied. I will always remember their eyes, the warm curiosity that was in them which immediately grew my affection. In a sad way though, it was their eyes that betrayed them; they were all of them young, but their eyes were much older, having grown quickly and matured with the harshness of third world life. I generally refrain from asking what if questions, but what if our roles were reversed. In my travels that was a question that seem to echo in my head. I looked at these pictures taken about 3 months ago, those memories rushed back, and I had to write them down. Thanks for listening.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
  Commence Traveling
Hola, como estas? Tienes chimichangas? A phrase. In Spanish. It will soon be commonplace in my conversations, sadly supplanting my once familiar Korean "Onn-young-ha-sayo, kimchi joo-sayo" (Hello and how are you, kimchi please). I am facing this harsh formality because I just purchased airfare that would have me stepping off a plane in Buenos Aires, Argentina two weeks from this Wednesday. Buenos Aires, 17 days, Joseph G. = out of his gourd.

Oh my goodness, that proximity is both terrifying and exhilarating. This feeling is further amplified, or perhaps more appropriately exacerbated after turning down the one job offer I had lined up in the country. I had prearranged a teaching job for myself and it would have been waiting for me once I had stepped off said plane, but now all I can really look forward to is mechanical bull riding and basking in the glory of some well grown handlebar mustaches. Both are Argentine ignorance may or may not be sarcastic. It would have been slightly better than my first taste of Vietnam, which was communist soldiers with fingernails of disturbing, disturbing lengths; and children street vendors who upon polite refusal of their business, turn into nipple pinching assassins. Yeah I just used the word nipple.

My secret weapon besides craigslist so far has been the friend of an acquaintance. Sounds promising right? We have been corresponding on the magical tin cans connected by string that is gmail and its wonderful chat service and she has proven to be most helpful and informative. Through talking to her I have basically determined that the best plan is simply to arrive, scout out the city and find an apartment while (using her language) staying in a sh*t hole at minimal cost to myself, and then hit the ground running in search of employment. Of course while retaining mental health and refraining from robbing a burrito stand. All she is asking of me in return for her counsel is some love from America in the form of JIF peanut butter. My kind of girl. Who can deny the heavenly yet figure punishing treat that is peanut butter? Not I.

I am typing this from the little Internet cafe that is my family dinner table...I say Internet cafe due to the high concentration of laptops and starbuck coffee drinking hipsters. I am sitting across from my middle brother who's hard at work putting together his communications program application to Western. For about the third time in 25 minutes I break the silence with an ingenuine laugh while directing a comment close to "I'm going to Argentina in like 3 weeks" at him. For some reason I think he will have some kind of answer that will alleviate the mystery of just what hell I am getting into. I have read that using laughter and comedy is a highly effective way to deal with the stressors or curveballs that life throw you; or you throw at yourself.
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I come from a small town north of Seattle, WA, where I learned that rain is a magical thing because it turns things green. I have had the chance to go a few places and see a few things of which all I have are pictures, memories and stories. I am currently living and learning about Los Angeles, California, and what it means to be an Angelino.

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